For some reason this made me ball my eyes out. Maybe because she sounds exactly like I sounded when I was 12, speech and all. I wonder where that optimistic determination and belief that 'I can do anything' have gone? I guess I'm more realistic. I guess I'm still the same. I still mostly underestimate the amount of effort and/or length of time it will take me to do something.

Or maybe I just needed a cry this week and what better thing to cry to than a small child telling you that she fears for her future. In case she is reading this, I suppose I am in fear of my future, too, but likely in more selfish ways than compared to her or even when I was younger.

I don't know what I've become.

Though, admittedly, if I really didn't think I could become someone I want to be, I would not even try. I still think I can. I will do it. But I guess I need encouragement to do things that may prove I'm worth the space that I take up on this Earth. And I will eventually find the affirmation.

I want to know, how are you?

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